How are you? Do you have a good week? Are you in a good weekend now?
Now it is night of Saturday, I have changed something in this letter that I had written in the morning. So, I try to send it to you once more and hope it does not make any trouble for you...This week I was in a quite sad emotion for I lost a very important friend. You can not imagine that the clue was just from my driving... The too bad experience and too suddenly shock deeply hit and hurt me so that I lay on the bed for 4 days. Every night I opened my eyes until I heard the songs from birds and I saw the first light of morning out of the window. It was so clear that I felt my heart pain, that feeling just like a sharp knife was cutting my heart and my body so that I had to ask a former colleague to drive for me when I had to go out for my tears can not be controlled as soon as I sat into my car or I was alone somewhere and some time.
I suddenly understood why it is said that one night sadness can make a person's hair to be white. Yes, Friday morning, I did find several long white hairs on my head...
I knew that I was experiencing an extra hard time from my psychology, body and mind. I had to do my best to control the bad feeling to hurt me continuously. I had to try to recover from the bad experience and emotion as soon as possible... I could not be hit down and I had to learn some lessons from the too bad experience and never make a same mistake again... So, no matter how bad situation I was experiencing, I kept my art and music learning and I came back to the web site to work. I am really sorry that I can not sing and create a piece of music for you at this time. So, I have chosen some of my voice recorders that I did before for you...
Anyway, I am so lucky for the company cared for me very much and the general manager Mr. Z told me that to feel free to ask a car and a driver from the company at anytime if I need. My former colleague Mr. Charlie Z drove his car for me here or there at any time when I needed even though he had to send his wife, picks us his son... my cleaning lady Ms.He found my kitchen was too clean and she went to buy and cook something for me before she left from my home every day. Meanwhile, I got a lot of telephones, mails, messages from my parents, brother, sister, teachers and friends. A kind and "Big"friend "promised" to play piano with one hand and to paint picture with the other hand for me...My younger sister who is a university psychology teacher has flied to me and her tutor and some psychology scholar friends have had a dinner with me... All of these really made me feel warm, better and even some happiness in the sad time, all of them are helping me to overcome from this too big and too bad frustration in my life...
Tonight, first time, I re-felt that the dinner was delicious... smiles have come back to me more and more...
Ha, do you know? To experience something bad is also a good way to reduce weight. I am smiling that I am just 59kg with a 161cm high, thin enough and I never need to pedal away the pounds now... :-)
I was touched by the warm from the company and the collectivity and I do appreciate all of these people who are helping me. I am thinking that a person should be an animal that has to live in a collectivity. We need warm, care for, friendship, honesty and love from family members, fiends, collectivity and company. We need to have some communication with the others and we need to be helped from the others and also ourselves... maybe this is just one of the charms to work and live in a company, a collectivity, a family...?
Have you been in a deeply frustration time in your life? Whether you have had some good help from your company, a collectivity, friends and family as I do?
I am just a learner on art, music, English and the work on the web site. Anyway, I would really like to do a little bit things with what I have learned to make this little web site to be
An Electronic Bridge Of Culture Exchange, Friendship, and Language Learning. During the process to help the others and to improve myself. :-)
I do appreciate your understanding, directions and supports. I do hope to get your great help continuously now and in the coming time...
If you have any questions, comments and suggestions, please write to
shirley@ebridge.cn , or
shirleyz004@haoo.com, You are welcomed to
publish your opinions in the forum,too. :-)
--ShirleyWritten and Edited On Sat, May 20, 2006